"My body will never be the same after I have a baby, right?"

My sweet sister commented " Your stomach looks like a 25 year olds" In my last update post! I love it! I hear all of the time things like " Your body will never be the same after children. Your abs can never go back to what they were. We just have to accept it...HOGWASH! While I have not yet "fully" returned to my 20 year old body...YET I do trust that it will happen. All in good time and with a lot of sweat and work! I don't think it will just be the same I believe it will be better! Because I will appreciate it more this time around and take better care of it!!!!!! When all is said and done I will have lost somewhere around 90 - 100 pounds...that is no small amount of weight to lose. I may have a little saggy here and a little veiney there but I look FABULOUS and FEEL fabulous and I have begun to fit right back into my old/newer better skin! I wore size 10 pants when I was 150 pounds and I am in a size 10 now at 179 pounds...what will 20 more pounds do??? That is right...SIZE "8" baby! My ultimate goal! That is more than I could have hoped for, but it is not the actual size or weight of my body that has made such an effect on my lifestyle change...it is the way I FEEL. My mind has been sorting through all kinds of mental garbage and taking it out to the curb! A healing of the soul, if you will. I have discovered things about myself because I was willing to take a long , hard look into the depths of my entire person. Why did I eat the way I did. What is the reason for the habits I had developed?

Asking your self hard questions and THEN BEING WILLING TO ANSWER THEM is winning the battle!

" Why do I think I need a little "treat" at 9 pm to " decompress" and have some time just for me?"

" What makes me want more food than I need?"

"When am I eating the most of my calories?"

" What causes me to feel justified in eating food that hurts my body? ...and way too much of it?"

Plain and simple I am a food -aholic! I see that now , after months of self evaluation. It is empowering to know that about myself! I use food like an alcoholic uses their drug of choice. I eat when I am HAPPY, sad, frustrated, bored...you name it!

Then searching for REAL answers for my symptoms....

" Strategies, guidelines, rules,faith,healing,support,moderation,love(self love)..." All a good place to start...and END:)